Today I woke up and I make a decision. It will probably be the hardest thing I will have to tell you. But I have to tell you because I need to get it off my chest. We both need to be honest with each other. I just can’t do this anymore.
I hardly slept last night. I was tossing and turning. It was probably the worst night of my life. Sometime in the middle of the night, I woke up to find myself on the edge of the bed. I think I was awoken to the fact, that I was falling.
So, I spent most of the night battling thoughts in my head on how I was going to break the news to you. How could I gracefully tell you how I felt, without it sounding like I don’t love you anymore. I played different scenario’s in my head.
Maybe I will wait till you’re in a great mood and we are having a wonderful day. I just could not figure out the best way to tell you, what it is that I need to tell you. I imagined the words slipping out of my mouth and the reaction on your face. I am hoping you will understand how I feel, that I can’t do this anymore.
It’s been six years now, since you and I have met. They have been the best years of my life. I was fine with what you wanted, every night, I let you have your way. But now, it has to end. I just can’t do it anymore.
I can’t have you sleep in my bed anymore. You have a room of your own and a beautiful bed that I bought you. When I was little, I wanted a bed just like the one you have. I wanted a room just like the one you have. My daughter, my girl, my sunshine you can’t sleep with your mommy anymore. It literally drives me up the wall. I spend all night, fighting off your kicking feet in my back, in my stomach and sometimes in my head. I cannot sleep well, you hog the bed and you push me to the edge.
Tonight, we start something new. You MUST sleep in your own bed from now on. I am sorry, that this must end, but last night was the worse of it yet.
Love your tired mommy