The drama with the man who could not allow himself to have any emotions his over. I am thankful. It was a bumpty road that finally ended on a Sunday morning when he allowed his “baby mama” to text me some random message about how they were in some relationship and I needed to back off. She then said something about me not being special. I tend to disagree with her on that point as I am more than special, I am awesome.
I was a little bit shocked at the whole nonsense as he told me that she somehow walked into his house while he was asleep, stole his phone and texted all the females on his phone. He then told me that it was not the first time that she had done that. I would have locked my door after the first incident, but apparently he couldn’t figure out a way to keep her out of his home if he did not want her there.
At the end of the day, he choose his daughter over a relationship. He feels that when he finds someone he wants to date, his “baby mama” gets angry and withholds his daughter from him. He couldn’t figure our or he did not want to figure out that he needed to take this woman to court so that he did not have to make any compromises with his happiness. Or maybe deep down he loved her still. Or he was cheating on her with me. Either way, the drama is over and I have had to move on.
I am a little bit pissed off at myself for wasting my time in a relationship that was not going to ever go anywhere. I just wish he had been up front and honest with me in the beginning and told me that he had no inclination of ever taking our relationship anywhere. But its ok. In every bad situation, there are always lessons to be learned.
I was about to swear off dating for the rest of my life. Seriously. I am tired of meeting men that are only interested in sex and nothing beyond that. They pretend that they want more from you and talk a good talk. But I don’t know how many times my intelligence was insulted by some asshole, loser pretending to be endearing. It’s like all the married men prowl the online dating sites, looking for women they can use to their advantage.
I want a relationship with someone I adore. I want to be with someone who wants to be with me for who I am. The intelligent, creative, crazy, angry, bitter, loving, generous, broken, hurt and most wonderful woman. I want tha forever love that is so rare, but still very possible. I believe in it.
I decided to be honest on my online dating profile. I figured I had nothing to lose by telling the men who would potentially want to meet me, exactly what I was looking for. I wanted men to know that I no longer wanted to play around with my heart or my life in any way. I am getting way too old for jerking around and pretending that what I want does not matter.
I did not plan to get back into any form of a relationship with a man who did not know what he wanted but felt it was fine to stick around and play with my feelings. So one night I decided I was going to lay it all out there for everyone to see. There was nothing more I could lose. This is my current online dating profile: